It has been 11 years since I've last seen you smile at me. I miss those times when I feel that no matter what happens, I'll be safe in your arms. That everything will be alright because I know that you will always be there.
I miss your laugh, your dishes that always make me say "mmmm" because they taste so good. I'll never forget when summer just officially started and I was hanging out with my cousins then you called me and handed me a 3-inch thick biology book which you wanted me to study in advance. And school just ended. T'was ridiculous but I understood why. :)
I'll never ever forget how I used to sleep on your tummy when I was still a toddler. How I miss those times when you sing to me "And I love You So" when you put me to sleep when I was a kid. God, I hated Sam Milby because I felt he ruined the song. :P And how you smiled and laughed when I asked you to marry me when I was 5.
Life has never been the same without you. It has been a little over a decade, yet, I still sometimes wish I can go back to those times when you're still with me and mom. But one thing will always remain the same, I am still your girl - a daddy's girl.
Today marked the 11th year since you passed away and please always remember that I'll give anything just to see you once again, to feel your warm hug and unconditional love again. I still sometimes cry myself to sleep holding your picture whenever I'm hurt or when I just simply miss you.
I wish someday, I can hear you say, "We did a good job raising you" and I can see you play with your grandchildren. But I can only wish.
I'll see you someday and when that day comes, I wonder if you'd recognize me or if you'll even remember that I am your daughter. And if you do, I'll forever be happy. It would be nice if I would also transform to the little girl you used to carry in your arms. :)
I love you, Daddy. And I miss you so much.
Your girl :)
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
A Letter for Daddy